I lost my track again.....

Today,my big boss give me preasure again....say me always go to small company and no improvement... in this 6 mth,....i can feel he will sack me soon if i still remain like this.....i just only have 6mth left....aiyoo....why i so weak in sales geh...i always think i am best in sales....why nowday i so weak jor..no energy to fight jor....i need find more big company like public bank,....but public bank no hope jor....aiyak,....anybody can help me....i really hope ____ will help me....coz last time ____ she always give me luck.....but nowday no more jor....can i go through this time?i hope so......god bless me a bit ok?